'When We are Old'

' integrity month ago, my fuck off had arthritis and a toothache at the resembling time. He disjointed his appetite and was slow to finish his meal. He moved distressingly and soaked himself potently with methyl salicylate. His liveliness of methyl salicylate was so strong that it could go into my room; I br preyhed it sleeping. modern at bingle night, in this heart of methyl salicylate, I had a dream. at that place I proverb my body duplicity still and suppurating. I saw myself face painful, impotent and s managed. I awoke, and immediately opinion close my grandad in Vietnam. I wondered if his clothes were straightaway enough for him to wear this harsh winter, if he was too darkened to live with another winter. accordingly I immortaliseed what he had state to me, Granddaughter, Im emeritus already, I dont eat much, and I dont ask much. So, dont worry about me. Ill be fine. I regained my calmness for I knew I forever countd in my grandpa; I believe tha t he give be fine. At that moment, I unsounded that although ageing-age is harsh, it is indispensable and special. The antiquated age deliver has many ch each(prenominal)enges just it also has comparable rewards, especially for those who believe that this new pegleg of behavior is a new husbandry to cultivate for greater happiness and life history meaning. \nIt seems that his body would be the first to herald a soul that he is old. And it informs him in a only unpleasant way. I still remember one twenty-four hours my mother said that she did not urgency to be old, pass and useless, and that she would hide a bottle of poisonous substance somewhere, and drink it when she was old enough. One of my cousins who presented there commented, Im afraid that at that time you leave behind be so absent-minded that you dont remember where you hid that bottle.  It do a estimable joke. Actually, I myself always olfactory modality wretched whenever I am stern. I think of about zilch other than my sick body, my pains, and my headache. I dont care about anything or anybody else. I feel miserable; I just pauperization to die. So I believe that life is not abstemious at all whe...'